1. |
Be Afraid
02:06
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don't forget to be afraid
is what they always said
but I don't want to live that way
can I be free and strong instead?
everywhere I go a trap awaits
I stay one step ahead
I see what lies behind the bait
I keep a rock hard head
when trouble finds me I'll escape
one false move and I'll be
proof of that they always said
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2. |
Pantoum
02:56
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the superficial and meaningful sit side by side
the superficial and meaningful are intertwined
you want me cause I'm beautiful on the inside and out
you want me for intimacy, you want me for clout
the superficial and meaningful are intertwined
you notice I am pretty, then notice I have a mind
you want me for intimacy, you want me for clout
you love the way I make you look, but that's not all it's about
you notice I am pretty, then notice I have a mind
you make me feel loved, baby, and objectified
you love the way I make you feel, but that's not all it's about
you want me for intimacy, you want me for clout
I make you feel loved, baby, and objectified
I want you cause you're beautiful on the outside and inside
I want you for intimacy, I want you for pride
the superficial and meaningful sit side by side
the petty and profound dance a tango
in our minds!
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3. |
Sorry Talon
02:07
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Valentine's Day, seventh grade
anonymous rose, confession made
you revealed yourself later in math class
and at the dance you were there
with carefully gelled back hair
and a flower you stole from an overgrown yard
you approached when the music slowed
trembling hands, strong cologne
I felt so awkward, you were exposed
couldn't conceive being perceived
the way you seemed to look at me
just like a princess or a celebrity
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4. |
Wish to End All Wishes
02:47
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if I must live in reality
don't make me dream
and if I must dream
don't take me back to reality
on their own either is fine
it's just the contrast that pains me
some of my dreams
they have come true
like shooting starts
they shine their light
then they fall through
those moments so bright
are not out of view
why even bother wishing?
I get what I asked for
and still it won't do
fantasies lead me to resent reality
reality leads me to resent the fantasies
don't tell me, don't tell me
those stories I want to believe
don't make me, don't make me
long for what I don't even need
let me be happy with the love that I have
I want to be grateful and stop feeling sad
if I must live in this world as it is
I wish to accept it, to consider it magic
release the delusions that never did serve me
reject expectations, conventions of beauty
cause real love is beautiful enough
real love is beautiful enough
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5. |
Wrong Reasons
04:26
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you call my phone for the wrong reasons
you call my phone for the wrong
and I call you back for the wrong reasons
I call you back for the wrong
you buy me lunch for the wrong reasons
you buy me lunch for the wrong
I'm glad to accept for the wrong reasons
I'm glad to accept for the wrong
you come by late for the wrong reasons
you come by late for the wrong
and I let you in for the wrong reasons
I let you in for the wrong
you kiss my mouth for the wrong reasons
you kiss my mouth for the wrong
and I kiss you back for the wrong reasons
I kiss you back for the wrong
you're touching me for the wrong reasons
you touch my body for the wrong
and I go along for the wrong reasons
I go along for the wrong
hey look! now we've shed all our clothes
how things got this far I don't know
I'm uncomfortable now and it shows
you're not hard, I'm not wet
yet you're surprised and upset
when I say no
you still persist for the wrong reasons
now I insist this is wrong
you still persist for the wrong reasons
now I resist, this feels wrong
and I'm going to set things right
when I ask you to leave tonight
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6. |
Boobies
01:25
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my boobs are speaking over me
my words can't turn you away
words filled with animosity
while my boobs control your gaze
obscuring my personality
boobies say so much more than a face
they're pulling me down with burdensome beauty
weighing on my posture
making me hunch over
making my arms cross over my chest
you won't give it a rest
the more they're obscured
the harder you search
your stare more intense
the more they're suppressed
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7. |
Sorry...
03:04
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sorry i'm a heart breaker
never said i was the answer
i never asked you to give me a rose
i thought i told you my heart was closed
sorry i'm a heart breaker
sorry you're a risk taker
i never asked you to gamble on me
i warned you but you kept on romanticizing
our romance, thinking you had a chance
at impossibility
something important
you are forgetting
i never could make you happy
i don't even have the power
to make everything better
to spare you from suffering
if you try to fill a hole with me
you will only make a hole in me
until you are complete
there will always be a leak
and the life that you feed off of me will deplete
i can't stop the rose from wilting
i can't stop the wind from blowing
it chills you, but it moves me
i'm blowing away and you're shivering
you say i am sunshine
but you need roots too to survive
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8. |
Spilled Flowers
03:32
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you've been dying for a long time
and some day you will be dead
maybe tomorrow or the next day
or in some miserable decades instead
but let's not cry over spilled flowers
while they're still lying on the floor
let's not worry about what's beyond our power
next time I won't kick down your door
I've never been one for prolonged goodbyes
if you're sticking around you have to decide
will you disappear or hide
or will you still be by my side?
no, don't tell me, either way
you say it all with conviction
not quite lies, not quite truth
i wish you'd just say that you're confused
but how dare you ask me to need you
how dare you try to cradle my life in your hands
just to turn around and call yourself a dying man
but let's not cry over spilled flowers
while they're still lying on the floor
let's not worry about what's beyond our power
next time I won't kick down your door
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9. |
Sigh
02:54
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nights like this
all i can say is fuck
and sigh
the light was still on in your room
i could see the crack under your door
false comfort, it looked like you were in there
the illusion broke my heart
i went to turn your light off
i stood alone in your room
felt like being with you, almost
it had your smells and your things
and the messes you left
felt like being with you, almost
i didn't want to leave
nights like this
all i can say is fuck
and sigh
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10. |
Side to Side
02:41
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I don't want to grow up
I want to grow from side to side
and I won't look down on anyone
I'll just be really wide
I want to be wide and deep like the ocean
I want to be wise enough to listen
listen to the wisdom of new life
listen to the wisdom of fresh eyes
revere the ancient truths
seen more clearly by the youth
and the lessons from a life long lived
will be put to better use
when their validity is not exclusive
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